Apologies

My english has been real horrible in my recent post. My apologies. Apparently I am too lazy to type properly these days. I just blog for the sake for recording my life. *grin* Yes, this is what I use my blog for. Did you think the purpose of this blog is to let others know about my life? Of course not.. But I don't mind my readers! You're all my dearly beloved fans! I love you all.

So. Today is Saturday. And I went to church. I love church. Today's sermon was real applicable. Actually, the last few weeks has been movies and movies, not that I mind. Just that I like sermons. You actually learn something. Today's sermon, I believe is applicable to a lot of people.

I realised that most christians do not take the extra effort/step to have that rich and fulfilling relationship with God. The message was based on one verse

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind
-Mattew 22:37

Most christians, including me, do not exactly do all of the above. Frankly, I do not love him with all my mind. God's really not asking for much. Its simply loving him. but the deepest level, and that God is the primary focus of your life. Kinda like a Jesus fangirl. You're constantly thinking and loving him.

But why? Why love him?

Simple answer. Because He first loved me/us.

God's love is by action. And his love is very evident in my life. Honestly, I feel like I am taking God for granted. Whenever I am stressed/sad/angry/in trouble. Who do I ask for help? God, of course. And he NEVER fails me. He always encourages me when I am down, always putting up with my ignorance. He loves me to that extent. God has undoubtedly blessed me so much in my life, but I am so self-centred and always not thankful for his work around me. God is working in my life, in the people around me. I really honest love him for this.

I hadn't realised I am still loving God and close to him until today. I have been decieved that I am seperated from God, that I am undeserving to be in a relationship with him. This has left me rather depressed and sad. See how important God is to me.

When God rejected Cain's offering, Cain was very fired up by it. He got jealous of his brother, Abel. And killed him. Yes, this is not a nice story. But it is very clear that God was important to Cain, and because of that he reacted this way. I am not saying its a good thing, as you don't randomly kill people, esp. your own siblings. God is very important to Cain, just as he is important to me.

God has never left me. He has always been with me, always loved me. My heavenly father.

You are my king (amazing love)
I'm forgiven because you were forsaken,
I'm accepted, you were condemned
I'm alive and well, your spirit is within me
because You died and rose again

Amazing love, how can it be
That you, my King has died for me?
Amazing love, I know its true
its my joy to honor You
In all I do, I honor You

You are my King
Jesus, You are my King
You are my King