CHURCH <3

TODAY, was the LAST service for 2006.

ALRIGHT.

Lemme tell you this.

During the pre service prayer. I prayed that I would not be distracted and worship God whole-heartedly.

God, who really absolutely believes in me. Put the hugest distraction in front of me. Oh yes. Twits. Male and female alike. They are standing there. Acting cool. Atypical of me. To stand there and sulk at their twitdom.

And THEN God spoke to me. About my hatred for such people. Its prejudice. Everybody deserves their share of God. And such attitude cannot be tolerated. Such people ( I shan't say twits. its rude) need God more than ever. I wont describe who I am referring to. But I am sure you all know. The sort of people who make ordinary people's lives living hell for them. Yeah, I think you know.

I realised that my attitude needed to be changed. I never realised this was a problem before. But God pointed it out, and told me it was not pleasing to him for me to hate people like them. However different we may be. As long as they come to church, they deserved to be embraced by the saints. They deserve the love of Jesus. And who can show them love? None other than the body of Christ! (Yeah, that means the church)

They walked out halfway during worship. Maybe I was radiating hatred rays or something.

AHH.

It won't be easy.

But then, I also realised. I held myself above such people. It was pride. And God hates the prideful but loves the humble. I asked God to forgive me of my disgusting pride and my prejudice.

Its like the, story. I read it somewhere.

about this holy man, and this sinner.

Early in the morning, the Holy man offered his sacrifices to God, and said a prayer:

Thank You God for blessing me. Thank you that I am so holy, and pleasing to you. Thank you I have such a christlike nature. Thank you that you made me such a blessing to those in poverty. Thank you for giving me such a kind and loving heart that I am a blessing to those around me. Thank you Lord, that I am so much like you. Amen.

However the sinner:

Oh God forgive of my sins! I pray you cleanse me of all unrighteousness in me. Oh God I beg for more of you. I beg to be more like you, Oh God, I praise your holy name! Its only by your endless grace that I may be made whole. Dear God forgive me! I am weak. Make me holy and give me strength. Amen.

I believe that both man are alike. In holiness I mean. The holy man. and the sinner. But the Holy man thought highly of himself. Whereas the sinner was humble. And God honours the humble at heart. The Sinner understood he was merely man, and not God. And its only by God's grace and love that he was made whole. The holy man however believed that he was made holy by the way he was. How christlike, how generous. He thought highly of himself. And by doing so, he tore himself away from God.

Frankly I think the humble man is more deserving of heaven.

So, I will have to be humble. I cannot think highly of myself. I am no better than sinners. And my minute wisdom cannot be compared to God. My strength cannot be compared to God. I am nothing holy. I would probably drop down dead in the presence of God. Nothing unholy can stand at the presence of God. I cannot be compared to God. So what right do I have to be prideful? None.

So, I shall embrace twit/people. I shan't judge. anymore.

PEOPLE PRAY FOR ME.

ACH. i am gonna shampoo my hair right now. I will probably have a bleach white scalp for the rest of my life.

Today's cellgroup was. AWESOME. haha.

we had the thanksgiving, like sit in a circle and talk about each other, Appreciate each other. Kinda like those counselling groups. Cuz everytime someone was finished, they would clap/applaud. hurhur. Was really encouraged by yining and jiexin. And Cheryl. and everybody! although not EVERYBODY encouraged me. Today I realised how close and bonded our cellgroup was.

Cheryl also told me the real meaning of accountability.

and Jiexin got her happy revenge of powdering my hair so bad, i aged 50 years. Everybody was staring at me. And the whole cellgroup nearly died laughing. Very funny..

Anyway. TODAY WAS GREAT. and I cannot wait for the countdown tmr! My mom gave me the thumbs up to go for the countdown.

OH! and jasmine, jiexin, gabriel and I are gonna sign up for drumming courses! greeat!!